The 7 Billion Piece Jigsaw Puzzle

I have spent a great deal of my life feeling as if I don’t belong…  And for some strange reason the older I get the stronger that feeling, at times, can become…

I’m not a big drinker (and in all honesty, drunk people tend to get on my nerves).  I don’t do drugs (although in my teens and 20’s, if you could smoke it…  snort it…  or swallow it…  I tried it).  I still believe in monogamy (which in Los Angeles can be as foreign of a concept as water on the moon  – Here virtually everyone lives by either the NSA/I have a partner rule or the “Don’t ask don’t tell” school of thought).  I am a firm believer in communication (I believe common ground can be found in any situation if people are willing to listen to one another).  And I believe honesty should be a way of life for all of us.

As with most people, I have moments where I am completely baffled by others behavior.  Life would be so much easier if others would just abided by my rules…  I get that why don’t they?  Imagine it!  A world where everyone played by my rules!  How amazing would that be!  And then reality sets in…  That would be a nightmare.  I get on my nerves!  Can’t imagine never being able to get away from “me”.

So, I had this epiphany I thought I would share.  Not feeling like a stranger is about unconditional acceptance and love for others.  My rules are mine.  Why should anyone else abide by them?  And I believe there in lies the key to “fitting in”.  No expectations just a knowing that we are all part of a 7 billion piece jigsaw puzzle and somewhere out there, there are a number of other pieces that will eventually fit perfectly together with who I am (and I’ve been lucky enough to have already found a few).

So, for the most part my “feeling like I don’t belong” is self-imposed.  The journey continues.

Michael Foley

 

 

About the Author

Michael Foley

Michael Foley currently lives in Los Angeles where he pursues his passions. Writing, psychology, spirituality and politics. He has been a fierce advocate for LGBT rights since the early 80′s, during which time he was part of New York City’s Act-Up and a volunteer at the Gay Men’s Health Crisis. He has worn many hat’s over the years including nearly a decade in Corporate America where he was an Operations Manager in the Insurance Industry (please don’t hold that against him). Today he is a produced playwright and actor who continues to support and fight for LGBT equality and the healing of the LGBT Community.